the aftermath

the aftermath

Hello world, or at least those of you kind enough to read this. I GRADUATED!! COLLEGE!! YAYY!!

I am coming in hot as a post grad and I’m not really sure how to feel about it yet. I mean I was the type of girl who started their first day of senior year with a countdown until the day I graduated. I was ready to say goodbye to that place faster than OrderUp could deliver my favorite sushi takeout. Until the day actually came and went and I find myself reminiscing on ALL the amazing memories and people this year has brought to me. I think I blacked out for most of the ceremony from either the heat stroke I was enduring from the lack of air con in the arena, or the fact that my freshman year math class crush still to this day-turned DJ was sitting in the seat in front of me. I don’t know but I was overwhelmed to say the least. Anyway I moved back home from college about two weeks ago and I’m still not unpacked. If you think I’m kidding I mean it’s seriously taken me this long to shift my sh** because I’m half in denial over the whole process and I can only seem to get myself to unpack one candle a day. Oh and yes you read that right, I moved back home. A college grad actually living with their parents, which I honestly find comforting. They’re the best roommates out of the four years I’ve ever had. I mean they cook, they clean, they basically pay my rent. what more could I ask for?

Anyway back to the unpacking part, all my stuff is spewed across the living room floor (sorry mom), I’m on my eighth load of laundry (I was too cheap to spend $4 on crappy washing machines at school), and I’m taking my time with the rest because that means I haven’t really moved on right? I never thought I’d say this but I’m staring to miss those crazy boys across the hall who would break into our apartment thinking it was theirs and those mornings where I’d walk out to find a half eaten frozen pizza shoved under our door. So¬†while my friends or better yet classmates are catching flights (and probs feelings) to various cities in Europe, I am spending my nights watching the BBMAs eating delivery stuffed crust pizza with my mom synchronizing my sobs to Celine Dion and Miley Cyrus when she barely finished her debut performance of Malibu (like seriously can i be her already just to date Liam?? I do have a thing for aussies) Deep down I can’t be that upset over the fact that everyone and their second cousins are traveling, I know my time is coming soon (btw a whole other post will be dedicated to my post grad choices just not now) but to give you an idea how my life is going the only texts I’ve gotten in the last two days were from my bosses:

ex #1 “and after class we can go to Starbucks and gossip over a coffee if you’re up for it!”

ex #2 “you can come in an hour late this weekend if you want more time!”

at least it was all good things. This must be what adulthood is like?

Ever since I was little I always wanted to grow up so fast but never in a million years would I feel more like my three year old self when my dad lost me in a grocery store for an hour and sat in the snack isle crying with my stuffed animal, which if you know me, that’s still a pretty accurate representation of how I handle certain situations. And also a very real representation of how it feels to be a college grad. However, I can honestly say the last four years were the hardest and most rewarding times of my life. From the tears, the laughs, the frustration, the joy, the hospital visits (yeah I had a couple of those), the quiet moments, to overwhelming noise, the disappointments to the achievements, college is something that I experienced as never feeling more lost but more myself. Every experience is unique and it is put in front of us to teach us a lesson. Though I didn’t always have the picture perfect and stereotypical experience, it was my own and I couldn’t be more proud of myself.

Here is a list of things I’ve learned over the years that have brought me wisdom and strength to be able to conquer the next chapter in my crazy, beautiful life.

  1. Be yourself. No one really truly knows who they are at this age but the more you stay true to your morals and strengths the easier decisions and sometimes life will be.
  2. Trust your gut. 9 times out of 10 it’s usually not wrong. About friendships, relationships, homework assignments, or hole in the wall restaurants.
  3. Make mistakes. All of them. If that means bombing an exam, choosing the wrong hair color, ordering a terrible coffee, or getting caught up in the wrong group of people. ALL of these situations you will learn from and it will only make you a wiser person for the next time around.
  4. Take time out for yourself. Your body and mind will thank you.
  5. Read a book. A real one for actual enjoyment. It’s amazing the things you learn when you actually engage with the words rather than memorizing “according to (insert name no one can pronounce)”, “in a study conducted in (insert year that none of us will find relevant after this test)”
  6. Try to travel. As much as you can to everywhere you can go. These are lessons you will never learn in any other place.
  7. Let go of toxic relationships or friendship. It’s amazing how much stress and negativity this will add to your life. And letting go is all apart of growing up.
  8. You have to learn to go through heartache to find out the joyful things in life.
  9. Learn to love yourself first before anyone else.
  10. Get as much sleep as possible, but no one remembers the nights they got enough of it.
  11. Learn to be independent, but in ways you never thought you’d have to be.
  12. Learn to cook. This will make a huge impact in your life and how to take care of yourself.
  13. Stand up for yourself. People will respect you more in the long run.
  14. Find a good balance. Don’t drink yourself to death but don’t hold yourself back and regret it later.
  15. Your GPA does not define you or how far you will go in life. Just do the absolute best you can.
  16. Dress for success. But if all you feel like wearing are PJs, do it. If you want to wear heels, do it. If you want to wear the same leggings 8 days a row without washing them, do that too because we all have been there.
  17. Live in the moment. Time goes by too fast to take it for granted.
  18. Social media is not the tell all for how good or bad your life is. It is never as it seems.
  19. Have a few mental breakdowns every now and then. They actually make you feel better but don’t live in them.
  20. Most importantly keep the faith. In anything or anyone and especially in yourself.

I’d be beyond impressed if you made it to the end of this post. For those of you who know me I can talk. A lot. But I hope that you can take these little words of wisdom and run with them. It’s taken me years to gain some of the knowledge I have now and I still have so much to learn. These aren’t an exhaustive list of how to handle college or life but it is a pretty universal place to start. And with that I am looking forward to the start of the next chapter life brings and more lessons to come.

Thanks again for reading loves,


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